Today was officially the first day of Fall; otherwise known as the Autumn Equinox, or Mabon in Celtic tradition. It is a time to harvest the seeds we planted in Spring and nourished throughout the Summer. The days will begin to get shorter and it is time to start preparing for the Winter. This is the time where we reflect on the events that have happened this past year; creating those seeds that must now sustain us in the dark days ahead. It is the time for us to go inward and process all that we have experienced through the Spring and Summer. This is the time of year where we must look at what we have and learn to cherish and hold on to it. This is the time where we can dive into our shadow work and work on ourselves in order to maintain our balance. This is when we can do our deepest healing.
The seeds we planted earlier this year could have been intentional or unintentional. We don’t always get to choose how our life will go, but we can choose to take the seeds we were given and use them to our advantage. Like many, I have seeds that I intentionally planted and very exciting things are happening right now in my professional life. I wrote a story last November and submitted it to a magazine. It was a story summing up my spiritual journey and my connection with trees. A few months ago I learned that it was one of the ones chosen to be published and I should be receiving my copy any day now! This is a perfect example of how the seeds you plant can really take off if you nourish them properly and never give up. The magazine is the 30th anniversary edition of Sage Woman; issue #90 The Magic of Trees. I have always wanted to be a writer but I used to tell myself that I wasn’t good enough, or I would never be published. But a year ago things drastically changed in our life and that was about the time I sat down and wrote this story. Then after learning it was going to be published it dawned on me that thousands of women are going to read my story! It was a sign that I shouldn’t stop at one piece, I must keep writing and keep putting my voice out there. Now I do that through this blog.
But Harvests don’t always go as planned and just like real farms can cross contaminate each other with a strong wind, so too can we be left with seeds we did not intend to plant. For us it was my husband getting injured at work again. This past year we were still recovering from the last time he was injured in 2013, and a major surgery in early 2014. He was down and out of work for more than a year, and just when things looked like they were finally getting back to where they should, he got injured again! Like most unexpected situations, this was devastating. It can make you want to give up and say that “it’s hopeless”, or “it’s just not meant to be”. Yes I’ve caught myself saying those things a couple times, but then Mabon happened!
You see when we get too caught up in the positive and things that are going right in our lives we neglect and forget about some of the things that are most important. If we spend too much time looking ahead, we can miss what is right in front of us and happening now. I believe that is what happened to us. I have already started reflecting on these seeds, and this season I really have my work cut out for me! Maybe this was supposed to happen because we were on the wrong path. Maybe I was spending too much time daydreaming about what could be, instead of focusing on what is. These kinds of thoughts breed depression and anxiety, and it’s no wonder why both of these conditions are so prevalent in our society today! We are victims of our own thoughts! Even though I say over and over to listen to your heart; even I still get lost inside my own mind at times!
So this is what I’m going to do through this Autumn season. I am going to get out of my head and I’m going to take advantage of the time of year and what it’s meant for. I am going to take the time to reflect on which crops flourished, which could have used more care, and I’m going to figure out the best way to take care of those unwanted weeds that got mixed in! I’m going to go for more walks. I’m going to find more time to meditate. I’m going to work on my shadow side and write about what I discover. And yes I am even going to share some of my discoveries here! I think it’s important that healers share their own stories so that others can learn from them and build connections; especially if they are struggling with something similar.
I would ask that anyone who reads this post to take the time to do the same. Get a journal if you don’t already have one and reflect on what things have gone the way you wanted, and what things haven’t. Is your harvest full of the seeds you planted and nourished? Or is it full of weeds? With some deep reflecting you may learn how the weeds got in so that you can better prepare for next season. Like farmers who have to change what treatments they used in their fields because the soil changed, or the crops adapted, we too must be willing to adapt and change. If we don’t adapt, we will keep repeating the same patterns over and over until we can no longer use the soil because all the nutrients are gone from it.
Don’t be afraid to step into the dark to do this work. Without the dark we would never know how brilliant the light really is!